I spent the weekend with my boyfriend. I was online there too, naturally.
Part of my addiction comes from the belief that I would be bored if I didn't spend time on the internet. That's a load of bullshit, honestly. I'm an internet addict, but I subscribe to blogs and facebook pages that are about living a disconnected life, offline, in the world. I know that there is fun and life to be had AFK but what do I really do about it?
I went to the hospital last night. I slept all day today, trying to regain my health. Instead, I feel fuzzy and weary, almost too tired to type this. My body aches and I just want to space out.
But I am here. Pushing through the pain and exhaustion, to play on the internet.
What's wrong with me?
I am full of self-loathing. Not so shameless anymore.
Do you really feel unhappy that you spent so much time online or do you think you should feel unhappy because of the bad rep being online offers?
ReplyDeleteI personally feel like crap if I go online when I'm out and about. Or when I need or want to do other things. But, I think the reason I feel like that is because of all the bad rep there is to excessive internet use. It's not because I really feel unhappy. I feel unhappy because I think I'm made to think that.