Thursday, February 9, 2012

Holy bejeezus, I'm tired!

Working and going to school full time as well as juggling a social life and motherhood as left me exhausted. I don't have time for anything anymore. I can't even read for pleasure. Every spare moment is taken up by schoolwork.

Work isn't as fabulous as it used to be. I have a lot more responsibility now, which is good because I'm always busy, but as I get used to having a job, I find myself more and more determined to succeed in school so that someday I might have a job I love. Today, my favorite coworker and my bosses got into a very loud fight. My coworker had a point. He said that one of my bosses talks to all the garage staff like they are children. He does. He even talks to me as if I'm a child, and to be honest it pisses me off as well. My boss is only a year older than my boyfriend. He's just hella condescending and it's kind of hard to deal with. I've only had to put up with it for 2 months, so as the newbie, I understand being put in my place.

I still think he needs to respect his colleagues a little more.

Anyway, the argument was loud and the energy in the room was just very dark. I didn't like it at all. I'm far too sensitive to be surrounded by that.

My mom is getting on my nerves again. I'm doing my utmost to be positive and happy and she's so mean. She thinks she has the right to talk to me in the most disrespectful way you can imagine all because she has to deal with my mental illness and not being fully independent (I don't live with her). No. Nothing gives anybody the right to talk to anyone the way she talks to me.

It's really hard to walk away when she gets like that.

Alas, my life.